Marriage

I have mentioned before I was married for a brief period, it was probably something I regret doing, I should have waited until I was older and could handle the seriousness of it.  I was young and reckless, and still emotionally all over the place.  I did love my husband, still do, but I made so many mistakes and he was so unhappy it was impossible and still is impossible to patch up the damage done.  I have tried over the last year to mend things to no avail, but he has moved on and is truly happy now.

I mention this because I am set to be a brides maid in a wedding next month, my first time in a wedding party.  The bride is my best friend, and I love her very much, but am unsure if she really is ready for this commitment.  She speaks to other men and ex's, and does things I do not agree with if you are planning on getting married, and have the date set and invitations out.  I find that my generation, and possibly before me, we do not take marriage as seriously as our parents and grandparents.  Marriage is seen as something you can easily just pick up and leave when things don't go your way.  And as long as you don't have kids, it is not hard to get a divorce and leave the other person behind.  Now Marriage to me means nothing.  Marriage will not stop someone from cheating on you, marriage isn't a guarantee the person will stay around.  It is a piece of paper two people sign as an agreement, but that agreement can be and is easy broken so many times. 

Maybe I'm jaded from my past experience, I do hope one day I get married again, and am happy and have children and my white picked fence, but it's hard to see that in my future after so many failed relationships, and watching my friends ruin their marriages, and are acting dishonestly.