Happy Birthday Memphis.

Yesterday was my dog Memphis's birthday.  He turned 5, and I can't believe how much time has passed.  It makes me think about turning 27 next month and remembering it like it was yesterday picking him up when I was 22.  I originally bought Memphis with my Ex Husband the night after our engagement party.  I saw him from a breeder online and fell in love, but the next day was our engagement party.  So the morning after the party we woke up, drove 4 hours to somewhere in Pennsylvania, and picked up the new member of our family.  My Ex and I also purchased and house, and along with my own personal money, we put all the engagement/wedding money into this house.  This caused a problem when I went to leave him, I wanted some possessions in the house, he did not want me to have anything because I was leaving HIM.  So instead of going to court, instead of constant fighting, I simply said, I won't fight you on the house, if you give me Memphis.  Of course seeing as most people are materialistic, he agreed.  I packed up my clothes, and put a lease on Memphis and was on my way.  Memphis has been around longer then any guy I've had in my life, I feel like he is my son, and I have him to come home to everyday.  As sad as that sounds, he's been there for the best and worst, and I love that dog very much.  I might be one of those crazy "dog people", but Memphis is my baby, and I love him more than anything in this world.

Leonard Cohen

Leonard Cohen is probably my all time favorite poet, followed by one of my top 5 musical artists.  His voice is not that great, which makes it even better for me, but his lyrics and poetry are absolutely beautiful.  I wanted to share one of my favorite poems turned to song, although it is hard to have a favorite since I love so many.  The link to the song is also at the end of this post.

I lit a thin green candle, to make you jealous of me.
But the room just filled up with mosquitos,
they heard that my body was free.
Then I took the dust of a long sleepless night
and I put it in your little shoe.
And then I confess that I tortured the dress
that you wore for the world to look through.
I showed my heart to the doctor: he said I just have to quit.
Then he wrote himself a prescription,
and your name was mentioned in it!
Then he locked himself in a library shelf
with the details of our honeymoon,
and I hear from the nurse that he's gotten much worse
and his practice is all in a ruin.

I heard of a saint who had loved you,
so I studied all night in his school.
He taught that the duty of lovers
is to tarnish the golden rule.
And just when I was sure that his teachings were pure
he drowned himself in the pool.
His body is gone but back here on the lawn
his spirit continues to drool.

An Eskimo showed me a movie
he'd recently taken of you:
the poor man could hardly stop shivering,
his lips and his fingers were blue.
I suppose that he froze when the wind took your clothes
and I guess he just never got warm.
But you stand there so nice, in your blizzard of ice,
oh please let me come into the storm.
http://youtu.be/AEzRXjg1rYE

I love you Austin, Texas.

I met a guy a while back who lived in Austin, Texas.  I decided to go visit him and take a nice vacation from life and from work.  I did not expect the enjoy Austin as much as I did.  The city was amazing, everything I could want out of a city and more.  The people were nice, the resturants were fantastic, and the bars we're even better.  Country music and punk music playing on every corner, and tattoo shops on every block.  It was like the entire city was like the Lower East Side of Manhattan.  I am not happy in New York, I have not been very happy here for a while, but my job security has kept me here.  I often enjoyed places I have traveled, but never saw myself living there.  Austin has changed my outlook, and although it would mean giving up my good job, and good life I established here,  I long to move there, even in the 106 degree weather, and find happiness.

The Road, The End.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hbLgszfXTAY

I have read and recently watched this movie, and although the book was more in depth, I found the movie to be good as well.  I often have thoughts about the Apocalypse, and how the world will end.  It could be because of all these movies in my generation (Ex: Book of Eli, 2012, The Road, War of the Worlds, Knowing, Independence Day) And although these movies might have different casts, different style plots, different settings, the main idea is, humanity does not have much time left.  If it be from our earth, nature, the sun, aliens, natural disasters, one thing is in common, we are all going to die.  Humanity is going to cease to exist at a time not far from now.

Not only do movies show us our extinction, but religion as well.  The rapture day for example that just past us. May 21st 2011.  For those who are unaware of this day, it is the day that Christians believed Jesus was coming down to judge us in the end of days, if my reading and memory serves me correctly.

I have an overwhelming feeling I'd say in the past year of my life, to feel like I need to be prepared in case anything does happen.  Sure Hollywood, the news, the bible could be brainwashing us all into doing things and feeling a certain way, But I live by, it's always better to be prepared for everything than to be unprepared for something.